I took some time away which many have noticed to take a step back and a look at my life. We are in a state of transition and exploration, which is new to us. The thought of a home and family isn’t as scary as it once was, even wistful at times. We liked our life, small apartment in the trendy part of the cities. With the hipsters, the bars, bistros, and numerous coffee houses. It worked for us, simple and fun. We made enough to get by, go out drinking with friends, have date nights. We had no real responsibilities like a car payment, or house payment, or anything really. Our days off when we got them together would be annoying cute like reading our books together on the couch with the cat asleep between us, and often movie night cuddled on the couch with a cup of tea. We are happy, we get along great, we make each other laugh all the time. Insanely, annoyingly, and completely in love. Yet in the last few months, things haven’t seem enough.
I worked for many many years retail. It is a business where everyone goes out and drinks after work, new friends were found, age doesn’t matter, it’s so much fun at times it doesn’t even seem like work. Think of Scrubs, the TV show, a work day for me was as fun and spontaneous and even as sarcastic as the show. Yet the down side is pretty big. The hours you work fluctuate daily, and weekly. Making plans more then a week out is unheard of. You have no sense of weekends or holidays. With the trend of “midnight opens” on black friday, and “open late” on christmas eve growing in the states. It often ment family was always put second, even if that family was just a amazing husband and a fluffy grey cat. I would always put work first, nominating to work the late shift on holidays since everyone I worked with had kids, parents, family that they wanted to spend the day with. Mine was 2000 miles away, so I felt it was right, making that sacrifice. Well it used to.
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